Sleep

As my regular readers (all three of them) know, I have sleep problems. The Chantix isn't helping. I keep having these weird dreams and when I wake up, I'm TOTALLY awake. I also kind of don't want to go back to sleep because the dreams are so weird. So now here I am at 3 am doing this. Bleh. To make matters worse, since I'm so tired all day I wind up taking a nap at a stupid time when I get home. I'm all messed up now. It's probably a good thing I'm not a surgeon or a trucker or someone who makes nuclear things. I really want a cigarette right now, but I don't know where they are. And I'm not quite mean enough to wake up my husband to make him give me one. My mom used to give me a bad time for "wasting" my cigarettes - I'd leave this really long butts in all the ashtrays. Well now I smoke them to the NUB, so I can't even pick out a butt to puff on. Yuck. That's so nasty isn't it? To paw through a dirty old ashtray for a cigarette - gross. I'll be so glad when this is over. Something to think about - smokers are really the only people over the age of 3 who will drop something out of their mouth onto the ground and then pick it up and put it right back in their mouth. What a fun habit.

3 am

I hate when I can't sleep. My husband just lays down, closes his eyes, and falls asleep. How does he do that? Unless I'm at the point of complete exhaustion, I toss and turn and fret and worry. I suppose I could take pills, but I hate to do that. I have to be bleeding out the eyes before I go to a doctor for pills. My mom swears by this OTC stuff called melatonin, but I've never tried it. I guess it's not a big deal to be up this late on a Saturday - but this happens on weekdays and that's really bad. I've been a bad sleeper ever since I was a baby. Anyway, I'm just rambling now - I'm really tired, maybe I should go read something boring or watch something dumb on TV. Anyone with any tips - let me know.